Hygiene Hiatus

Hygiene Hiatus

On my journey to doing not nothing, I've noticed a trend in my productivity. When I get up and do one thing, it usually makes me do another thing. I think to most people, that's living life and being a human. However, my brain is funky, so I call it a huge win. 

Not everyday is a huge win. When I begin to struggle, the first thing to go is hygiene and self-care. Do people talk about that? Are people up front about how gross depression and anxiety get? Let me share some of what happens when my mental health starts to dwindle…

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Three Years Later - Mental Health Awareness Month

Three Years Later - Mental Health Awareness Month

Here's what I want to share with you: I'm having a really hard day. I went six months without having a hard day, but lately, a lot of days are hard. That doesn't mean that the progress I've made in 3 years (not to mention the last 20) doesn't count. I thought that I was short changed because my work went viral when I wasn't ready. I thought I was letting people down when I wasn't set up to be an influence or support system. I wasn't. 

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Long Time No Talk (but plenty of depression)

Long Time No Talk (but plenty of depression)

"Do you like yourself?" My therapist asks me this almost every week. I sit. I think. I get uncomfortable. I squirm around in my seat at the question, suddenly realizing how stuck my legs are to the leather of the chair and how my necklace feels against my skin.
"Do you understand that this is your depression and not you?" He makes a point to draw attention to the delusions I'm allowing to run my life. I quickly dive into every reason that he's wrong.

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10 steps on How (not) to Change... Everything

I’ve been clinically depressed and anxious for the better part of 25 years. I’ve had the answers and know what really works for me for about a year. I have to treat myself like a one year old.What do one year olds have? Grace, support, encouragement. They learn to clap for themselves when they take a single step because everyone else is clapping too.

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Discipline over Desire

Discipline over Desire

This quote is exactly what I needed in this season of my life. It’s not about wanting to be skinny. It’s not about saving money or my future children’s college fund. It’s about that fact that discipline isn’t just putting the nose to the grindstone for no reason. Discipline is about understanding that your moods, appetites, passions, desires, wants, feelings, cravings, aren’t going to live and grow on their own. They can inspire. They can cause a dream. They are something to aspire to fulfill. Discipline is what it takes to get you there.

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Makeup and Cleansers and Soap, Oh My!

We know what we use. We like what we use. We’ve spent years and years cultivating and curating a collection of perfumes, foundations, deodorants, lotions, detergents, and all of our toiletry goodies. Now we’re told these things could be causing an imbalance in our hormones, a disturbance in our thyroid, and even cancers that are becoming more prevalent. One of the hardest changes I had to make, next to food, was getting rid of the products that were causing harm to my body.

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Are You There, Motivation? It's Me, Katie

Are You There, Motivation? It's Me, Katie

You see, the problem I had with the word "motivation" is that I made it synonymous with being productive. I had convinced myself that all those women my age were just feeling motivation that I didn't have and they were getting. shit. done. Meanwhile, I was jealous of them wondering when the hell my motivation was going to show up. I lived like this up until like... I don't know... last week? 

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