HOTMESS

When you deal with things like Depression, Anxiety, and Chronic Fatigue, motivation is few and far between. Actually, motivation is a mythical creature on par with the Bigfoot and Centaurs. At some point, you have to accept that this creature, while claimed to have been spotted by others, only exists in the minds of those that believe. Ah yes, minds. Our minds are a crazy thing.

I know you’ve heard the term “mind over matter.” If you have ever been in the middle of a panic attack, you know that the two most helpful (sarcasm font) phrases are “calm down!” and “it’s all in your head.” Mind over matter is a tricky concept when your mind is literally refusing to function. I mean, the idea is great, “I just have to think positively!” However, your brain is going, “I’m positive that you’re dying!”

The reason I bring up the mythical motivation and the ability to conquer your mind with your… well… mind, is because we’ve been fed this idea that the mind and body operate separately. I’m here to tell you that this is absolutely false. I’m here to let you know how on earth I went from dysfunctional hot-mess with depression, anxiety, daddy issues, and IBS, to functioning hot-mess with daddy issues and regular bowel movements! And you can too!

In all seriousness, I truly have found incredible ways to heal my mind, body, and spirit. My entire life, I was convinced that mental illness was genetic, irreversible, and something I had to live with for the rest of my life. Then I found functional medicine, and my life is forever changed. I would like to note that I am still on an anti-depressant, and I know that not everyone has the same experience with illness. This website/blog is going to be my public journal to share with you all I’ve done to find healing. I’ll share with you how I self-care, how I meal prep, and how I slip up and fall down. I am human. I have been poked and prodded, tested and medicated. I’ve talked for over 100 hours with a therapist, and over 10,000 hours with my friends that have so kindly listened. I’ve studied, researched, cried, given up, and tried again. I’m here to share my life with you. All of it. Every up, up, down, down, left, right, left, right, B, A, Start with you.

I want to invite you to experience life with me. I want you to know that not only are you not alone, but there are ways to support your mind, heal your body, and live. I know it may sounds weird, but stick with me! I went from 6 hour long panic attacks every day and night, horrific stomach issues/IBS, PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome), horrible acne, and severe depression, to being able to function, zero acne, zero IBS, regular periods, and more up days than down. I want to help you find healing as well.

Will you join me?